searching for....

on your shelf

waiting

for what i know won't arrive

by the time you realize


i'll be gone

and so will you

like a ghost

sometimes i appear only to haunt

or so it seems to you

nothing of substance

nothing that remains

nothing

that's me

a return to something else...

happy to see you

although you aren't

fading fast


as you always were

unknown

unrest

drama

and the queen

an uneasy feeling throughout

the preparation of what's to come

in disguise



my feelings for her

unanswered

i feel that i should walk away

A Homecoming Before Exile

coming back is not so bad

seing old friends


writing to you would be nice, but nearly impossible


a book of life in the making


another return to come

the anticipation in what i have to say

will overcome us all

prepare for whatever


without endings, we wouldn't have beginnings

Strange

needless worry in abundance

doubt of all as is included

where will everyone go? what will everyone do?

questions, questions, questions

the anticipation is driving me away

just go, just do, just live

we'll find a way

no need to worry

no need to doubt

no need to label


but you insist


i should have taken the time to say goodbye

although i can't and won't

i'll say it now

just don't expect

me

or anyone

to stop living


to take the time to watch you die


goodbye

I'm Not Tryin' to Make a Difference

adversity


anymore


natural ambition

propelled toward the unknown

preparing for the worst

sit back and enjoy the ride

just remember that it's our last

why are we doing this

oh yeah

i think we've all forgotten the reason why we're here

The Wisdom of the Owl

and so the dark times have begun..............


"All life is transitory. Even your children are not immortal, my sister. The time will come when they will be defeated. The time will come when no one will want gods and goddesses to nurture them, when they will be driven into the darkness, like my children have been this day."The time approaches when the summers of Inisfail will be flowerless, when the cows shall be without milk, and the men will be weak and the women shall be shameless; the seas will be without fish, the trees without fruit and old men will give false judgements; the judges will make unjust laws and honour will count for little and warriors will betray each other and resort to thievery. There will come a time when there will be no more virtue left in this world."~Domnu, Celtic Myths and Legends, Peter Berresford Ellis

Fallacy

in my mind

directed towards your heart

should i walk away from you

into an uncertainty that we both fear

an existing problem that has no cure

not in time

inaction has encouraged my action

sitting

waiting

wishing

that's how you've approached this problem to be solved

only time won't mend me

or you

or her

not anyone

my accidental definition of what i'm trying to accomplish

you don't care what i do

so long as i stay here in misery

it's impossible to make you happy

not youor uor anyone

live YOUR life

you are the only one that can do that

will you live for what others want?

are you willing to throw your life away?

i'm not so leave me beit can never be because i want to be happy

it always has to be an attempted escape

from misery

Spite and Apathy

that's what motivates me to do what i do


without it i'm uninspired to strive forward

without it i'm complacent to become what i'm so afraid to be




to be continued...........

The Balance Between..........

good and evil

hate and love


ying and yang


without the people who do bad things people who do good things would have less to do

without those that make misery

the people who attempt to bring love and freedom have less to strive for

Finding A Way Through

uncovering inertia

on the move

prowling


restless and motivated

angst inspired

unlike any other day i'm inspired more now than i have been for weeks


in misery i have my edge

i hate it so much

but at the same time i know that it fuels me

and without it i'm powerless to stop everything that i hate

the balance between.............

In Between Girls Named Andrea

the one that i loved and the one that i'll never know

i the that i knew and i wish that i never did

or maybe that's what she thinks too

leaving behind something that i wish i had

and realizing that neither one of us could ever make it work


i would have stayed here for you

and now i know that i couldn't

i have no home here

i realized that on sunday

i'll miss you

good luck

and i hope that you know that i care

And Her Name Was..........

i was just getting started

then you walked in

dragging your balck cloud behind you

above all my days you've left your grey

now my blue sky is gone and i'll never know more than her name....her smile


from my distance i'll continue

making my own way

i want you to know that i care

and i wish you luck unitl perhaps we meet again

someday maybe

Incorrigible

without faith

without feeling

without a family

that's how you've left me

lost in my dreams

continuing on towards something

an empty happiness away from U

i'd rather be alone than to have anything that includes U

i won't back down

because once i do it's all over for my life



i've given up on almost everything

just to get away from you

Everything That I Couldn't Say

i'm sorry that i couldn't say more

over the past few years i've wanted to

it's not that i've taken any of this time for granted

i just don't know what to say to you

i've been lost

in your eyes and in your smile

lost

now as it is i feel that i should have left a long time ago

maybe i shouldn't have come back at all

stay away

that's the only way that no one will get hurt

goodbye

i should have taken the time to say goodbye

What it's All About

happy valentine's day


yeah i know it's early, but then again why wait for one specific, designated day to tell someone how much you care/appreciate them

here's a token "Happy Valentine's Day" from me to you

hopefully, what i'm saying is something that hallmark or who or whatever else couldn't


i hope the next 5 days are as special as the actual "valentine's day" will be.............


take care, stay well

heart

Like The Weather

the end of one season and the beginning of another

the time is almost up for both of us

bittersweet as it is i'm happy for us both

although this may be the last time that i see you

i'd like to see you play

hopefully, you'd like to see me stay

the time is almost up for both of us

will it be the last..........

it will be the last of one....

as we both get ready for another

the seasons flow in their cycle

but at the same time it isn't if you look at it right

it's a stream

moving from one to anther in transition

one season leads to another and another

this winter leads to a new spring

the next set of each will be newer versions

with new experiences

not repeats, but another chance to see them again

so if this is goodbye, then take care and good luck

i hope to see you again

as the seasons change


and we all grow together

as the seasons change into something unknown

another

who are you

anonymous

mysterious

have i just never noticed

where you always there

avoiding a look

although i can't

when our eyes meet............